the pain i feel

The pain I feel

what is my purpose, why am I here,
enduring the pain until the end of time,

to be free from this unceasing pain,
that eats away from my soul,
my essence dies a little more each day,
I see it in my dreams,
just lying there in the rain,

i reach out to touch it and it all comes back,
every painful, evil, agonizing memory,
engulfing me and casting my mind into a fiery inferno.

I collapse...
and lie there for what seems like eternity.

but through all the hurt I manage to smile,
the pain , you can't even imagine,
the joy I feel knowing fate is right behind you, waiting

and when I snap, fate will strike with the strength of god,
turning the world to ash
And on the top of the mountain of corpses mine will lie,
triumphant and smiling...